To My Feelings

I feel like my emotions are playing with me again

I feel torn between loving you and caring less

How do my feelings change so quickly

One day I am crying my eyes out for you

and the next

my heart doesn't skip a beat at the sound of your name

Why is this so complicated

Why cant my heart decide what it wants

what it feels

Either I love you and have a broken heart 

Or

I could care less and am ok with just being your friend 

One minute your face brings a smile to mine

and I want to see you, talk to you, hold you

and the next I may wonder what you are doing or thinking

but my heart feels nothing

the nothingness

where does it come from

why is it here

how does it come and go so quickly

I hate it

so sick of it

I want to be done with this

I want to know for sure what I want

what I feel

this is why life should not be based on feelings

feelings are unstable

unreliable

mixed up and confused

yet so hard to ignore 

its not possible to go through a day 

without thinking of how you feel

So to my feelings

please make up your mind

I no longer want to fight you

or feel confused

just let me know how I feel

even if its heartbroken

I just want to feel 

Quote of the Day:

"Deep down you know it's best for yourself, but you hate the thought of him being with someone else."