Another Enemy

While distracting myself from you

I find myself trapped by another enemy

I try to run away

but it finds me anyway

Sitting in class

Working on my computer

Talking with my friends

It finds me

It finds me when I least expect it

When I think I am at my strongest

I repeat to myself

I will not give in, I will not give in

and yet...

I find myself back here again

wondering how I got here 

wondering why I cant say NO

wondering how I can enjoy and hate the same thing

But is it truly enjoying

that answer is no! 

So why if I don't enjoy it

can I not say NO

Oh God I need you

I need your strength

I need your comfort

and most of all

I need your grace

for those times I find myself

back here failing over and over again

trying to distract myself

from not just one enemy

Oh no! Now its two

Quote of the Day:

"For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not 

want to do - this I keep doing."     Romans 7:19