Hurricane

I feel like a tree

in the middle of a hurricane

so out of control

being pushed and whipped around

rained on without end

nothing feels stable

nothing feels sure

disaster seems near

like the eye will never come

I feel like a swimmer

in an endless pool

with no where to go

my past hunting me

and unable to swim away from it

wishing to reach bigger and better things

but unable to move forward

only to stay where I am

no improvement, no change

as hard as I try

I can't get away

I feel like a baby

trying to learn to walk

but only falling

failing with every attempt

unable even to just take a step forward

without dropping to the floor

losing hope with every attempt

I know the eye will come

I know one day, the endless pool will open before me

and I will learn to walk

Jesus is the eye in the storm

God will lead me forward

and hold my hand, teaching me to walk

But that feels so far away

the blue sky & the light at the end

don't seem to be near

my faith is weak

my hope draining way

with every failure and hurricane

God I want to rely on you for my future

to not worry about tomorrow or even today

to wait on you and trust you

that one day, life will improve

Lord, strengthen me and give me hope in you

because I sit here, broken and struggling

to trust in the one who will never let me down